The rainbow bridge between the wound and origin of man
Shooting arrows towards the stars
When i was a little girl, i knew that i am here to only become more stupid and forget valuable knowledge that i carry. Children are spiritual beings who emit light... they are fresh carriers of cosmic dust, which through the aging process looses its power shine. I came with the knowledge that we are cosmic beings born from the waters of this Earth planet. Our ancestors inhabit far planetary systems and we are made of particles of light. Sounds familiar? I am sure that many of readers would feel the same. My first books as child were anthropological, geographical and biological reads. I was deeply intrigued by the mystery of our human dna, the story of viruses and bacteria, fungi, spiders and processes of magma and water. How our earthy paradise was formed, was the most exciting story in my universe. My mother had many books about ancient mayan wars, hidden cities and Greek gods. She told me that if i read about the Greek gods, i would be able to understand the human archetypes and psyche.
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Books were great remedy for this pain. I loved the isolation moment, hiding under my blanket, while pretending to sleep with small reading light. Book pages became gondolas drifting on rivers of words into dark caves from where adventures would take me in swirl of breath. There is quality in books that i prefer more than film... because i could imagine the things. I knew realized back than that films are illusion and the eyes perceive this optical illusion as real. What is reality? Who are those heroes… mythological creatures seemed more real than Santa. Well of course during communism, we did not have Santa for real. I was fascinated by Achiles, Orpheus, Vyaghramari, Gugamatz and Huracan. Dragons with three heads, titans, Indian fakirs, woman turned into trees, this kind of magic speaks to children and children believe in magic. Magic is the power to make your own reality by understanding the current of energies and their attribution. Growing as adult we are conditioned by the daily bullshit and loose this knowledge through the process of growing. As adult, many people stop believing in mythology and legends and decide to stick to "facts", something that is as fairytale as tales can be, but that's another story.
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The Wounded Healer
'Only the wounded physician heals...' Carl Jung
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Some of my first reading memories depict centaurs and brave humans descending down into the earth's labyrinth in quests for self discovery, love and other holly … The centaurs presented the wild human side, the one that wants to run free. I believe i grew up free. Even if it was communism, the way i was broad up was the way of being much on my own, doing the things i loved… art and eventually becoming this rebellious little shy kid, who wanted to express all the pain feelings inside… that she absorbed unknowingly why. I wanted this pain to stop… and so started my long wild ride between self expression, judgment, imagination, death and everlasting celebration of life. Testing different natural and synthetic medicines and exploring the cause and effect laws with friends, who were artists, musicians, rebels or just kids like me... in the search of their own truth. We were the explorers of universe, parallel dimensions and different speeds of moving light.
Centaurus constellation includes Alpha Centauri and Beta Centauri.
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This is the story of the wounded healer
All my life i tried to discover what is the cause of our human sensitivity. Obviously we had something different than animals. I use to relate better to animals as kid and this isolation from humanity created great need to look deeper inside me and out there in the dark parameter of night. There are many legends, myths and stories and there also the stars above. I observed the Sun- the light giver and the Moon- the emotion generator, seeking for answers on rooftops. The stellar Gods are the transmitters of energy… information. I talked to them since early age. Star walking on beaches, planet sitting on isolated construction side ruins. This is something i miss so much these adult days, thats why i had to get my own telescope and start rediscovering the magic of dark nights.
In one of the biggest constilations in Southern hemesphere lay the remains of magical centaur Chiron. He is one of the first astrologers and herbalist known from antique Greek times. Orbiting in strange pear shaped sequence within the outer planets Saturn and Uranus, it takes him approx 51 years to circle around all astrology signs. If Saturn has its return in our personal charts every 30 years, Uranus every 40, then Chiron is the one who brings the so called midlife crises around 51. Chiron represents in each of us the wounds of life we carry. Wether they are karmic, inherited, created in this existence or simply belonging to all our humanity, this wounds are important part in self realisation and love. Through understanding and healing them we all become suggestivly around mid age capable to heal others too. This cycle of maturment brings important role in the develpoment of human psyche. Without pain, one can become closer to love and radiate it through those healing wounds. The role of Chiron is one of compassion and enlightement.
In one of the biggest constilations in Southern hemesphere lay the remains of magical centaur Chiron. He is one of the first astrologers and herbalist known from antique Greek times. Orbiting in strange pear shaped sequence within the outer planets Saturn and Uranus, it takes him approx 51 years to circle around all astrology signs. If Saturn has its return in our personal charts every 30 years, Uranus every 40, then Chiron is the one who brings the so called midlife crises around 51. Chiron represents in each of us the wounds of life we carry. Wether they are karmic, inherited, created in this existence or simply belonging to all our humanity, this wounds are important part in self realisation and love. Through understanding and healing them we all become suggestivly around mid age capable to heal others too. This cycle of maturment brings important role in the develpoment of human psyche. Without pain, one can become closer to love and radiate it through those healing wounds. The role of Chiron is one of compassion and enlightement.
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We are all connected through suffering
Relating through the pain of others is the road to empathy. People with many aspects to their natal Chiron and other personal planets are surely the ones called great empaths. They become the artists, the pioneers, the fallen in depth of feelings and expressing them through life. They see the hungry eyes, they shake when someone cries, they feed the street dogs, build shelters or simply write songs. Chiron connects us through Faith in better future. Chiron is the modern aquarian healer who sees our pouring bleedings river as connection to our origins. We need to liberate ourselves from this earthly pains. We need to stopp cutting our livers through alcohol and drug abuse, through busy working life and isolation with others. People medicate in different ways in order not to feel. But to connect to your pain, to feel the saltiness of your wound and dive inside the stream of emotions which would eventually reveal your true self, is the gate to true liberation. If one continues to exist trapped in his wound, there will be consequences of all sorts such as impotency, inflammations, autoimmune issues, bladder related pains and so on. There is study that women especially after the age of 50 start using rapidly more painkillers and such medicaments. This is clear connection to the Chiron call of self liberation through examining the wound.
Chiron is calling us to take care of ourselves, to heal fully, so we could be able to help others through this depersonalisation of feelings. Currently Chiron entered Aries and has ignited the sign of the fiery ram and wounds of "self worth and rejection" have been healed towards "empowering myself and the others".
I wrote this blog many weeks ago, but because i was so buried in work, was unable to finish it. This sentences i write here after car accident, i was laying on street with my old bicycle over me. My green summer dress had exposed my almost naked flesh. The metal had bruised galaxies on my right thigh. In this moment i saw the actors of my feelings. The old lady driver who looked like me from the future, gray hair and lit cigarette. The dark blue adidas male figure, who was my protector at this moment, calling the police and giving me supporting words, while i was staring at his hard chest and blinking hanging cross. The Hermes driver who locked my bike away on side of the street, the hot ambulance guys, who were checking my body, while i was happily sobbing, grateful for another day to be alive. I wanted ice-cream more than anything… from this day i returned to my inner child.
Shadow working is the key
In order to come up with further conclusions on how amazingly accurate astrology is, i went through research of all Chiron, Eris, Sedna, Pallas and their relations to the big spherical bodies in a chart. My natal chart has Chiron in communication exchange with most of my personal planets. Any aspects to Sun and Moon seem to be the hardest obstacles. I have lunar opposition, which is so clearly described in here. Emotional wounds are the usual adverse by any difficult positions between Chiron and other planets. Moon is connected to nurturing, motherly connection, vulnerabilities, inheritance and emotions. Wounds reflected through the Moon are deep karmic knots to be untangled. Chiron's position by sign and house of course represents the kind of the wound that needs to be emotionally healed.
Recently Chiron left Pisces and entered in the spring the sign of the ram Aries (and will return shortly to Pisces in September to reflect once more feelings of unity, illusion, disillussion and beliefs). Anyone who is around 50 years old feels especially deeply this transition, because it makes aspect to their natal Chiron. Aries is the sign of the new born child, baby lamb happily running in the meadows in search of exciting new adventures. In global aspect it presents our afflicted egos in search for the authentic self. Our society has been imprisoned by rules and dogmas, by discriminating beliefs and borders. In spring we awoke to the need for reincarnation of our caged spirit. What withhold us from acting as the free child? Bonds to jobs we don't enjoy, to families we don't relate to, to unhealthy habits that make us sick etc. The hardest bonds to break are the three dimensional realities. The mass media projections and daily brainwashing. The systematic imprisonment by institutions and believes. Are these beliefs yours? One has to question his own identity and role in the society. What am i here for? How can i make this existing less painful for me and others. What actions can i take on daily bases that are valuable participation in the betterment, progression of our lives. Our connection here goes past our individual ego. It spreads from our ancestors to the future children. This connection belongs to our earthly link and beyond. We are the little lambs of God that can choose wisely for what to sacrifice our lives. It is one life, one impact, one imprint to leave behind. On August 11th, there will be solar eclipse which conjuncts the north lunar node. This is a release gate opening for expressing all hidden treats that keep us for evolving as we truly are.
Know thyself
The divine masculine in us is healing through this new Chiron positioning in the ram sign. The ego, or the consciousness i would call it, because ego has been so ripped of use in all spiritual writings and i think it has gathered dirty face, this consciousness awakes through healing of old emotional wounds connected to our childhood. Every person has this wounds. Every person has this conditions. Maybe some have it in milder form, because their wounds were not made by their closest family members and their parents could have been passionate freethinking adults, who have actually helped them to grow strong and free-minded. This kind of people are harder to control and manipulate. Manipulation is the stronger energy pull by an object….Our society will be awakening to their brave hearts to stand more for their own truths and needs. The male figure will go through transformations and grow from little wounded boy into proudful joyful man, aware of his vulnerabilites and connected to his emotions. Because the worst plague in our lives is the one that suppresses emotions, this is very necessary transition. The rise of western culture which promotes stereotypical vision on how we should look, feel and act, has damaged greatly our society. People have been turned into machines who have no time to get in touch with their inner thoughts… and child. This suppressed feelings later take the form of sicknesses, passive aggressivness, depression and other violent mental conditions. This conditions are thereafter labeled and threated with medication and therapy, but no one opens the can of worms… which we all eat from. It is our global responsibility to stop eating from this can by suppression of the inner child. Children belong to the tribe, should be treated as equal and left to grow in way that is non restrictive and full of play.
This next eight years will give us the chance to release all superficial illusions about who we are. The fog curtains of Maya will slowly dissolve. Our hearts shall fill with powerful faith in our abilities to be strong by ourselves and independend (Aquarius south node pull) so that we can serve our family and society in the best way. There are two lions… like two wolfs in the old Cherokee story… one is the lower lion, who feeds on pride and arrogance and other is the higher lion, who feeds on enlightening truth and joy of sharing. Feed your higher needs, stand up for your rights and believes, which are rooted in our primary nature, to be simply joyful, relaxed and condition free. Same time, do not forget we are one lamb tribe. Protect the soft and vulnerable you, create healthy ways to coexist, clear all toxic useless garbage that clutters your thoughts, emotions and life. Chiron is giving us the broom to whroom…..whrooom.
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